.....and 34 days later

I got my septum aye aye ayeee

Well I totally caught a house on fire today (techincally yesterday since its 4:24am)

I will be 18 in exactly one week

Fuck natural american spirits, I want my ports!

Miguel

I will be 18 in 15 days

SP1CEGURLSPURP

12/21 we will have contact with aliens.

Rankin Bass films make me happy like no one knows or will even understand and abc family needs to stop trying to recreate these films. stop. you're ruining the holiday.

The Velvet Underground & Nico

Primo - Mellowhype

There is nothing a hate more then when people concern themselves with me and what I'm doing. It just makes me mad.

Most of my favorite songs are either instrumentals or songs that seem senseless and are almost hard to follow

Theophilus London

Werp

Hello, it's me - Todd Rundgren
Running Water Revisited - Daniel Johnston
Lodi Dodi - Snoop Doggy Dogg
Snow White - Hodgy & Frank Ocean
Otha Fish - The Pharcyde
Sun in My Mouth - Bjork
What would I want? Sky - Animal Collective
Holy Dances - Beach House
No More Runnin - Animal Collective
Goodmorning Heartache - Billie Holiday

I just wanna get my fucking septum piercing already! I'm going fuckin bananas over here and I'm on the verge of just doin it my damn self

Crystal Waters - Gypsy Woman

"Umshini Wam" Die Antwoord Harmony Korine

Random Documentation

• I'm still 17
• I'm a senior
• I go to Chesapeake Christian School
• I don't think I'm failing anything rn
• My parents have been separated since June and are currently going through a divorce.
• I'm jobless
• I watch 'friends'
• I applied to college last Saturday
• I have been informed that I will not be receiving anything for Christmas.
• I have a tumblr
• I no longer have netflix
• My twitter is still standing tall
• I held on to Kreayshawn
• I still have facebook, but it isn't really that big of a factor in my social networking world.
• SpaceGhostPurrp, Kreayshawn, and Lil B follow me.
• Lady Gaga's fat

So far my senior year has been alright but like a really good 'alright'. It did start off a little rough and I was into my emotions a lot I guess but now I'm actually fine. I go to ccs (again) but it's okay. I'm not complainin, it's actually kind of nice. I went to an OF concert like 2 months ago and a Kreayshawn concert last week. Um lately I really haven't been that productive lol i've been playing around on my keyboard, listening to music, using tumblr, and tweeting. I've been listening to a lot of Ab-Soul & mixes on soundcloud. I have given some new artist a listen - Brooke Candy, Trinidad James, Ab-Soul, Theophilus London, Danny Brown and Die Antwoord. Some I like, some I don't, some I'm still unsure about. My mom is working on opening up her own consignment shop and I'm proud of her :') lately i've been watching 'What I Like About You' 'Beyond Scared Straight' and almost everything on ngc and the history channel. I don't let people annoy me as much, I'm still mean but getting nicer.

Artist That Have Gotten The Most Play This Month
• Ab-Soul
• Pixies
• Kendrick Lamar
• The Breeders
• The Slits

Songs
• Newtown - The Slits
• Pineal Gland - Ab-Soul
• Mixed Emotions - Ab-Soul
• All Over The World - Pixies
• Something Against You - Pixies
• Iris - The Breeders
• Maad City - Kendrick Lamar
• Poetic Justice - Kendrick Lamar
• Snare - MellowHype
• La Bonita - MellowHype

Favorite Soundcloud Accounts
• Soundcloud.com/Kjdreayshawn
• Soundcloud.com/neuport

Favorite Soundcloud Mixes
• Blueberry Syrup - DARK E FREAKER X DANNY BROWN X THREE SIX MAFIA (WAK LYF EDIT) by Neuport
• LIL UGLY MANE RADIATION (Neuport Coming Down Remess) ε-(´・｀) ﾌｰ by Neuport
• autumnal_equinox by KJDREAYSHAWN
• hotDOgdaZE by KJDREAYSHAWN

I will be celebrating my 18th in 44 days.

I just wanna luv u

The anxiousness that builds within me while awaiting college acceptance letters is most unsettling, and I want it to be over already.

Amy

Heaven's a better place, I hope you all die

I start drivers improvement on the 30th 😩

It's November 4th.

Saturday Morning

Trip hop 4 Da Soul ~~

Just how people wanna try acid I wanna try sex with asap.

Two white cups full of codeine, plus I got two white sluts down to blow me

Michigan

Currently in Michigan. I'm kinda of scared to view the body tomorrow. My mom hasn't cried yet and neither have I. I have no idea what's going to happen when im surrounded by hundreds of fellow grievers and a corpse. This is definitely not something I'm used to and this is definitely the most confused i've ever felt.

I've been watching old 'So Weird' episodes on youtube (before they get deleted). Reminiscing on my childhood. WHAT HAPPENED TO DISNEY

Kids

I'm actually losing weight. This is the happiest I've been in awhile. I can proudly say that I now weigh 110 pounds. Yaay, im getting closer to my 105 goal

This weekend was great but makes me question, are things better then they've ever been? I'll give it a week and then no more. Either way, the man always wins.

Ab-Soul - Pineal Gland & Terrorist Threats

Please don't tell my momma this ain't marijuana




Feelin' optimistic. Hip-hop, you can only grow from here.

Dream #2

I had a dream I was driving in the woods and someone in an easter bunny costume was following me on a bike he jumped of the bike and directly in front of my car. I slammed on brakes, he dived in the ditch, disappeared into the woods, and I ran down the endless wooded road.

I often lie to myself. I need clarity. So this is good me being in a different environment (ccs) it gives me time to understand more of the person I am. because right now, im really not so sure. I'm in a place so foreign to what I've ever known. Not referring to the school but myself. I don't feel the same. I just feel like I'd feel a lot better if I could identify the emotions and ideas i've been experiencing lately with something..something familiar I guess.

I think im a lot more sensitive then I let people believe

The Dead Weather - Are Friends Electric?

I'm so beyond the point of sadness

Tune-Yards - Real Live Flesh (official video)

Daniel Johnston - Some Things Last A Long Time

Nostalgia

Last Fall:

Scents: Wild Scarlet perfume, Marlboro Reds & Newports, Sarah's house

Music Artist:
Tyler, the Creator
Kreayshawn
Broadcast
Beach House

Albums/Mixtapes
Dinosaur
Goblin
Bastard
Kittys x Choppas
Work and Non Work
Desertshore

Songs:
Color Me In - Broadcast
VCR - Tyler, the Creator
Blow - Tyler, the Creator
Come On Let's Go - Broadcast
I'll Follow Rivers - Lykke Li (Tyler, the Creator Mix)
Janitor of Lunacy - Nico
The Falconer - Nico
Fuck Love - Tyler, the Creator
Analog - Tyler, the Creator
Seven - Tyler, the Creator
Parade - Tyler, the Creator

I think the fall of last year was when I first started to actually take a step back, look at my life, and think about where my life was headed. Contemplating whether or not the people that were in my life at that point in time needed to continue to be. I remember being really anxious and confused and thinking about change a lot.

I keep having really strange dreams and I'm going to start documenting them because I need to put them down on paper

Dream #1

I had a dream that I was at a carnival or something and I met this asian girl and we were talking, sharing interest, laughing..she was really cool. we were running around the carnival & being crazy and then all of a sudden she starting talking about religion and asked if I had ever heard of some type of religion with the name space in it or something (I cant quite remember) and I was like no and she started informing me about the religion and telling me that she practices it and I just kind of let her know I'm not really down with the whole religion thing nor have i found a religious niche yet and she was like here just try it out and she pulls out a needle and she kept trying to inject me with some sort of weird drug that only exists somewhere in my head and so I kept trying to move away from her and i kept telling her no i don't wanna take it but she eventually over-powered me and shot me up with her drug (which I think is what she was referring to as her 'religion') and she was like all happy and glad that she got me high and I was pissed at first and screamed at her because i didn't know wtf she put in my body but then I started to get really happy and i remember hallucinating the entire time and she introduced me to some random black guy and then we all got on more rides, laughed the tears out of our eyes and forgot about the world.

I think I had this dream due to a combination of things..

A. I'm sad and nothing but sadness has been consuming my life lately.

B. I'm missing the company of many people in my life.

C. I go to a Christian School filled with happy religious people and so I guess in the back of my mind im longing for the happiness of believing in something. It seems like a lot of people who believe in something have a hopefulness within them, happiness, no matter what the religion. It would be nice to believe in something, and I suppose that's what I'm looking for.

and in some weird twisted way all my thoughts created this happy train wreck of a dream.

I wish I wasn't so sad all the time.

Fiona Apple - Fast As You Can

i've welcomed tumblr back into my life again.

I have the absolute coolest science teacher in the universe and she's a she. who'd a thunk it

ASAP Rocky - Purple Kisses (Official Video)

I love how sexual and weird asap is, like he seriously makes me so happy. Even though he is a bit arrogant, he's interesting.

The Slits - So Tough

This is the remastered version unforunately..but it doesn't sound too far from the original!

*~~ FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL ~~*

                                    

                                                            first day at my new school

JUNIOR YEAR

Movies:











Artist of this year:



Odd Future



Kreayshawn



Broadcast



Asap Rocky



The Pharcyde



Sonic Youth



Earl Sweatshirt



Tame Impala



Frank Ocean

TV Shows:












Songs That Got The Most Play From Me This Year:
1. I'll Follow Rivers - Lykke Li (Tyler, the Creator mix)
2. Analog - Tyler, the Creator
3. VCR - Tyler, the Creator
4. I Just Wanna Be Your Friend - Kreayshawn
5. You Came To Me - Beach House
6. Lover of Mine - Beach House
7. William - Sibyelle Baier
8. Sophia - Laura Marling
9. Little Trouble Girl - Sonic Youth
10. Femme Fatale - The Velvet Underground

summary of the year:
i stayed low key majority of the year and cut a lot of people off.





p.s. this isn't finished but i just didn't feel like finishing it right now so i will get back to this later.

The Slits

The Breeders - No Aloha

I know I saw, and now I may die

Feelin' Uninspired

When I'm sad and lost I watch Lady Gaga's Inside the Outside interview and it makes me feel inspired. Then I jam out in my room to The Fame and The Fame Monster albums all the way through.

I think I'm going to pursue the whole home-school thing this year

GET HIGH, SMOKE THE BLUNT

LIL UGLY MANE RADIATION (Neuport Coming Down Remess) ε-(´・｀) ﾌｰ

Kendrick Lamar - ADHD (Official Video)

It's funny how the white people that claim to be oh so open-minded don't understand hip-hop...........................or black people in general for that matter

OF

The worst feeling in the world is the feeling of wanting something and not knowing what it is you want.

My heart hurts so bad it feels like it's just stopped completely

Boy

"Boy"
Almost like when your elbow accidently hits the bottle of soda behind it, and you hurry up and grap the bottle before it falls, but majority of the soda still comes out.

No Doubt - Just A Girl (1996)

Post About Life

I'm not happy with life at all

Post About Music

My favorite Beach House album would be the first one. I like it's unclean sound. It's hypnotic and reminds me of an old tape skipping & repeating itself over and over again. It's like the perfect dream. The purpose is to forget where you are, it's so natural yet other worldly enough to take you away and captivate you for the moment.

Well my parents broke up yesterday and i spent all of father's day packing up and moving shit. Let's see how long this will last.

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY TUPAC

"Just a Breath of Freedom"
"held captive 4 your politics They wanted 2 break your soul They ordered the extermination of all minds they couldn't control 4 u the fate was far worse than just a brutal homicide They caged u like an animal and watched u slowly die inside As u Breathe your first air of freedom on the day u become a free man Raise your Regal Brow in Pride 4 now you R in God's Hands The life of many were given so that the day would one day come That the devils in Power at Pretoria would pay for the evil crimes they've done."

Happy 41st birthday to Tupac Amaru Shakur

I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SAY 'PERF' even if their just kidding something about it annoys the shit outta me.

WORKAHOLICS

It really creeps me out how some people can be so incredibly smart but yet, lack common sense completely and so they have like zero social skills at all whatsoever idk it just kind of weirds me out. Maybe i've just seen dogtooth one too many times lmao maybe it's not even them that weird me out but the parents for like keeping their children completely sheltered and censored to the real flaws of today's world. I don't know, it just confuses me is all.

* ~ ~ * ~ ~ Gots a dread in my hezzzair whats goooood ~ ~ * ~ ~ *

Just kidding about the cigarettes, i still smoke those unhealthy bastards.

Video Documentation #3

SO HAPPY THAT SCHOOL IS OVER BECAUSE NOW I CAN DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT SCHOOL

Ok so overall my trip was wonderful. I'm pretty sure I was only sober for a total of 40 minutes the entire trip (not joking) but now I'm back in Easton and I've been sleeping majority of my life away. Oh yeah and I've decided to give up cigarettes. I came to the shocking realization that cigarettes are actually in fact not good for you. Um I also realized that my mother and my grandmother, are probably the two coolest people I know. This summer has been great so far and i'm only 8 days into it lmao woo

Minks - Cemetery Rain

Right now it's Sunday, June 3rd 6:20pm. I took a half of an ecstasy tablet saturday and i'm finally comin down from my high i haven't slept in hours and can't remember much but tonight I plan on taking the whole tablet hhahaha wooo

Broadcast - Echo's Answer

Trish Keenan is seriously a lyrical genius

UgH i AlWaYs HaVe A mIlLoN aNd OnE tHoUgHtS/IdEaS iN mY hEaD.

'i’m just a no good, meat eating, sketch on thin paper burned down to the last ash of my cigarette.' This is the most accurate piece of writing I have every written about myself hahaha

tUnE-yArDs - 'Gangsta'

i want a black choker like the one i used to have way back when

I NEED SHOES

i'm going to be documenting the last 2 weeks of my junior year starting tomorrow.

i'll document this day/night tomorrow because i'm still kinda fried and it's fucking with typing

the pharcyde & the cramps are fucking my world up

The Cramps - Like A Bad Girl Should

im absolutely in love with the fact that im more dedicated to blogger than tumblr. it just feels good knowing that ive had tumblr for two months and it still really isn't that big of a factor in my life haha

Suicidal Thoughts - Biggie

lol my friend matt told me i should start a drug journal and document everything i've ever tried and odd experiences. it's actually not a bad idea, but the only flaw is that i haven't really done or tried anything new or out of the ordinary these past few months. i guess i could just document past experiences that have already happened to me haha i dunno but i really kind of wanna do it. but these past 3 months of my life have been boring as hell ah wtf i'm gonna do it anyways.

the dead weather makes me wanna have sex and do bad things. oh jack white, you bastard.

The Dead Weather - I Cut Like A Buffalo [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

post about music

omg i just had a flashback


favorite artists of 9th grade year fall:
hendrix
zeppelin
nirvana
lady gaga

favorite songs of my 9th grade year fall:

jimi hendrix - all along the watchtower

jimi hendrix - little wing

led zeppelin - the rain song

led zeppelin - no quarter

nirvana - lithium

nirvana - come as you are

nirvana - smells like teen spirit

elton john - bennie and the jets

matt & kim - daylight

matt & kim - lessons learned

coconut records - west coast

favorite artists of 9th grade year winter:
david bowie
lady gaga
biggie smalls
N.E.R.D.
tupac shakur
cramps
ke$ha

favorite songs of my 9th grade year winter:

david bowie - space oddity

david bowie - ashes to ashes

lady gaga - bad romance

lady gaga - so happy i could die

lady gaga - monster

david bowie - china girl

notorious b.i.g. - machine gun funk

notorious b.i.g. - me and my bitch

notorious b.i.g. warning

tupac shakur - it ain't easy

N.E.R.D. - everybody nose

the cramps - what's inside a girl?

ke$ha - blah blah blah

jay-z - regrets

favorite artists of 9th grade year spring:
the kills
wiz khalifa

favorite songs of 9th grade year spring:

the kills - URA fever

the kills - tape song

the kills cheap and cheerful

nirvana - heart shaped box

nirvana - territorial pissings

lady gaga - speechless

N.E.R.D. - run to the sun

N.E.R.D. - lazer gun

wiz khalifa - friendly

wiz khalifa - in the cut

wiz khalifa - spotlight

wale - 90210

pixies - where is my mind?

favorite artists of 9th grade year summer:
uffie
lily allen

favorite songs of 9th grade year summer:

lady gaga - alejandro

uffie - ADD SUV

lily allen - sunday morning

lily allen - naive (cover)

lily allen - fuck you

jimi hendrix - castles made of sand

jimi hendrix - somewhere over the rainbow

alice in chains - would?

erykah badu - window seat

erykah badu - on & on

favorite artists of 10th grade year fall:
yeah yeah yeahs
the dead weather
the kills

favorite songs of 10th grade year fall:

the kills - love is a deserter

the kills - willow weep for me (cover)

liz phair - never said

the breeders - cannonball

the dead weather - are friends electric? (cover)

the dead weather - blue blood blues

yeah yeah yeahs - phenomenon

yeah yeah yeahs - yeah! new york

yeah yeah yeahs - rich

yeah yeah yeahs - kiss kiss

stornoway - i saw you blink

stornoway - fuel up

neutral milk hotel - oh comely

kirsty maccoll - in these shoes?

favorite artists of 10th grade year winter:
the velvet underground
warpaint
dum dum girls

favorite songs of 10th grade year winter:

the velvet underground - heroin

the dead weather - jawbreaker

the dead weather - i cut like a buffalo

warpaint - warpaint

warpaint - stars

warpaint - undertow

warpaint - elephants

the dead weather - 60 feet tall

tegan and sara - i was married

the dead weather - looking at the invisible man

warpaint - bees

beach house - apple orchard

the decemberists - summersong

bhang bhang, i'm a burnout - dum dum girls

local natives - sun hands

minks - indian ocean
vivian girls - where do you run to?
blondie - heart of glass

favorite artists of 10th grade year spring:
minks
jill scott
billie holiday
erykah badu

favorite songs of 10th grade year spring:
tennis - cape dory
minks - arboretum dogs
warpaint - beetles
jill scott - a long walk
billie holiday - strange fruit
everything of muddy waters

favorite artists of 10th grade year summer:
amy winehouse
velvet underground & nico

favorite songs of 10th grade year summer:
amy winehouse - just friends
amy winehouse - fuck me pumps
velvet underground & nico - i'll be your mirror
velvet undergrounf & nico - femme fatale

lol if you only knew

i've never had somebody only want to be my friend when it benefits them but i feel like thats the type of friendship you're trying to pursue. so please, let's be clear now.

Anna - Watch This Sex and the City clip. (the only two i could find)

Anna - and this one too

the best episode of sex and the city just went off

not quite depressed i don't think, but the lowest form of being sad

i don't even know what the fuck i wanna do with my life anymore ugh everything's so fucked up

i've been watching 90's hood movies these past 3 days. i ain't complainin' though

Santo & Johnny, Sleepwalk, 1959

my room is like a whole new hell when i live in it

tell your mother i said you're a wicked child

can't decide whether i wanna watch 'kids' or more 'tales from the darkside'.. UGH decisions decisions

i'm just a no good, meat eating, sketch on thin paper burned down to the last ash of my cigarette.

takes from the crypt, vodka vodka and more vodka, cigarettes, music, scissors, pencils, books, unhealthy food, and clothes. i don't know what type of girl i am

i have to stay after school tomorrow. forreal this time though.

OH MY GOD WHAT HAPPENED TO BLOGGER

The Dead Weather at Jazz Fest

I AM GOING TO THIS YEARS LOLLAPOOLZA