1:50am

to be completely honest, i probably should have stayed at ccs. yes i know i've complained and complained and complained about how much that school irritates the shit outta me but nothing has changed. i'm still friends with the same people, still the same person i've always fucking been, i still live in the same house, and school work still consumes majority of my time. at least at that school i still had time to myself, to think, do little side projects without falling behind, and just chill. but ever since i switched back it's like i can't do anything, sometimes the work is so overwhelming i can't even hear my own thoughts! i hate easton high so much, i actually wouldn't mind going back to ccs.. maybe i'm being a baby and running away from my problems again but i just wish i had some time to myself, some time for my thoughts, some time to just breathe. but right now i can't and idk i just idk i'm rambling cause i'm confused and looking for a solution to this horrifying dilemma. i've been thinking about this too much, it's got me really depressed. i'm just a person, with needs, like anyone else. i just wish i could sneak away, quietly, and nobody know where i went to.